This is What I Want

Serving God fulfill each day of my life. I know, I’m not a perfect one and each of us is not perfect. I had done many bad things but now I’m near to Him, I’ve realized many things. I’d change. Change that I wouldn’t expect I can do. It gave me the fulfillment I always wanted from the very start. He leads me to the right track and path that I must go. He’s my inspiration and serving Him was the only change I can give for all the things He have done. He never leave me and now Lord, I offer you my life. I trust and leave in you my life. I want you to handle it. I love you and I thank you.

Time is Gold

Time is running fast that you can’t run over ahead of it. Sometimes, I wonder to have a power that could stop the time, to return the past or ever go ahead to see the future but this would never happened. So the best thing to do is to treasure every moment you spent with those people you really love and to enjoy each day of your life.
I learned so many things about time. Time is gold and I think it’s true. You can’t return the time you wasted before. Time you didn’t enjoy, time you wished that could be repeated but can never be.
So now, I spend my time wisely. Each day of my life wisely with the people I love. Who love me and for God, who I want to serve.

Mhaiko

I know we’re too young to be in love?
But why did I feel this thing for you?
I love for so many reasons, that I could point out.
I love everything about you.
I’m crazy for you,
And I know you knew it.

I wish would be forever.
I wish this time would never end.
I wish you were all mine.
I wish I’m also yours.

I can’t explain the feeling, running over me.
When I see you, when you smiled at me.
I wonder for my future,
And wish your part of it.

I miss you,
When your not there by my side.
I love for who you are.
I don’t care what they say,
But I will always be in love with you.

Thank you for everything.
For loving me with all my heart.
For missing me, for doing everything to make me happy.
I love you that’s all I can say.

Aja!

“Aja!”, the first thing I’d said after that embarrassing moment. I was so prepared, my outfit, my voice but still it didn’t work. My classmates were expecting for me but I gave them a false hope. I didn’t make it. I failed there expectations and was ashamed of it. I never wonder that I couldn’t make it but it just happened like that.
I got lost with the rhythm but still I stand chin-up on the stage and still proud of myself. My classmates especially the boys teased me but they didn’t do that for so long because I’m a kind of a girl who doesn’t entertain such things. =’) after that, I just told myself that I must not stop from dreaming and achieving what I want. I also told myself that it’s not yet my time that’s why that thing had happened. Everything has its own time. Time to get what we want and to win every game we were in. I know its God’s will and He has a purpose for this. I know it! Aja! I can do it, next time.

Be Independent

Have you ever experienced having a group in school? Barkadas? Me, I have a group which and started last November, 2008. It was fun because they are the one who care for you. When you need someone to cry or lean on, they are there beside you to comfort you. They correct and give you advices for the wrong things you have done. They give you the support you need. You can trust them and they can ride with the trips you want. That is a barkadas!

It’s nice to have the so called barkadas but you should not be dependent to them. You must be independent. You must know when to say “yes” and when to say “no”. you must know what is wrong and right and know your limitations because barkadas may be a bad influence to you but still it depends to you.

Love Starts Early

Having a boyfriend at the age of 15 was so early but could you believe having this at the age of 9? It was my best friend who have experienced. Experiences that at that young age she had a boyfriend. She knew how to love someone she didn’t have any relation. As in a relative, a member of the family! At first, when told me about it I was shocked and I doubt her but as her best friend, I trust her so I believe her in what was she’s saying to me. I ask her so many questions to fulfill the doubt I have. Now I understand what love is. Love is unexpected.

Im Tried of It

To hate person is bad. I know it! I tried so many things for me not to hate her but she gave me so many reasons to do it. At first, I said to myself that the best revenge for her is to be kind, for her to be guilty with what she was doing to me but it seems not to be effective. I gave up, but I don’t do anything. I just kept quiet and got my notebook. I wrote there everything I want say to her, to release the pain I’m feeling. I release all what was inside me with that notebook and my pen. That’s my usual thing I’m doing when I got to feel something from within me. When I felt so depressed, I felt angry, happy and irritated. I don’t avoid talking but instead I write. I do these things for me not to hurt anyone with the words that may come out of my mouth that may hurt them and also to avoid hurting other people who was innocent with what was happening because I know my hand is heavy that if I’m angry or feeling bad to anyone I hurt them so to avoid this I do those things.